Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Did you know, sweet girl, that sometimes when you sleep your momma stares at you? That she tries to memorize every fraction of every inch of your face? That she knows as much as she wants to- next year she won't be able to recall your face exactly as it was this moment? That she is slightly fearful that you will grow and grow and grow away from her and that she's watching it happen with every breath you take?
Did you know that tonight of all nights your momma needed to look at you for a long time to drink in your beauty? That your beauty filled her and washed away the day's worry and angst? Did you know that you soothed her so that calmness could come and then rest would follow?
Did you know that she searches your face for signs of the woman to come and wishes her hard earned wisdom into your soul? That she vows to protect you and guide you, to shelter you and to shape you?
Did you know that for one last long moment she searches again- for signs of that tiny child she brought into this world. She searches the curve of your eyebrows down to your nose. She follows the shape of your lips and the line of your chin. She searches the shadows of your temple and the fall of your lashes curving to your cheeks. But seeing isn't enough and even though she risks waking you she presses one kiss on your cheek. And after this session of prayer she wanders off to her bed ending yet another long day.